Got to take myself back to a place where I can start to feel safe
I wish it were as easy as getting under the covers or making a cup of tea
And I'd like to stop saying I'm fine when I'm not
And to quote Cicy "I am really fucking not"
Wish I could tell you I need to be held
And wish I could tell you I need to talk about it

And when any attempt to be social ends with someone saying his name
And I sit and shake here in fear, trapped, I can't move

"He seems like such a great guy."
Filling me with shame
Put my head in my hands
And blot out the world

Wish I could tell you I need to be held
And wish I could tell you I need to talk about it
Wish I could tell you to just push on my throat sometimes
Sometimes I don't deserve anybody's love

A bitter taste on my tongue says "Maybe I should drink tonight"
Says "Come on, it's just a bit of fun."
Can't ever approach safety
Yeah, safety's too far from me

And when any attempt to be social ends with someone saying his name
And I sit and shake here in fear, trapped, I can't move

"He seems like such a great guy."
Filling me with shame
Put my head in my hands
And blot out the world

I just feel like I'm gonna lose my mind

I listened to the songs you sung
I listened to the rain